i just got mind screwed by my friend today. she told me to stop denying the fact that i am still in depression coz i was happily bitching away. i tink i tried too hard to look happy. gee, she really told me off. she told me to move on and be truly happy. the more i bitch, the unhappier i am. but i still have so much pent up frustration. i am about to tear my readings apart as i can't focus. i keep getting distracted by little things. i think i am suffering from some form of attention deficit. deep inside me, i am scared shitless about screwing up my exams. wish that there is some kinda brain washing machine so that i can wash away the bad memories. if only selective amnesia is that easy... oh well, i had better head back for my studies... sighh...