I was warned by my friend that there are lots of undercurrent politics among the staff in my workplace. Well, she merely confirmed my suspicion because prominent places like these usually warrant lots of competition as everyone wants to be well known in the methodist church community. I am bracing myself mentally for the challenge to compete but I will compete fairly coz I see no good in backstabbing. I wish that I call the shots so that I won't be susceptible to backstabbing and instead I can be a tyrant and wield the power to exploit my labourers :P Perhaps this dream of mine will materialize someday hehe.

I just came back from a chalet at east coast park. I am surprised that the kayak stall is no longer there. Instead, it is some other arrogant fellow who is situated near the chalet and expects his customers to carry the kayak themselves from the chalet area to the sea. It's so freaking heavy and it's a miracle that my back didnt snap from over straining itself when carrying it. I wonder if I ever have to carry canoes if I ever end up being in charge of canoeing. *shudders*. It's been a long while since I kayaked and i realized how difficult it is to kayak when both are not kayaking in sync. There were times I thought I would just overturn but thank goodness, i didn't :P It felt great to soak in the sea, let the waves push me to and away from the shore. It felt good to laze in the sea and let the sun rays beat upon my back but I still didnt manage to get a tan (darn). I wish I can just laze like that everyday. That would be perfect. Sighh.. too bad, my slacking days will be over soon

I am half looking forward to work and earning money while the other half of me wants to slack around. I met a few of my new colleagues, they seem rather nice except some big mouth arrogant guy who can't even articulate well or talk intelligently. I hope I will be put in charge of canoeing so that I can get to go for a canoeing course or some other outdoor activities course. That will be fun so long as my Saturdays are not burnt.

My friend said: It's okay to be the third party or the "part time lover" of someone else. It's okay if a gal betrays her guy while her guy is also betraying her. I am apalled to hear all this from my seemingly conservative friend. Now am I the conservative one instead? Perhaps she hasn't experienced the feeling of being betrayed by a loved one. It's not just about being conservative and being loyal, it's also about being aware of the other person's feelings. Awareness will only help one become more sensitive to others' feelings, to the consequences arising from one's own actions. i strongly believe in karma, in other words, retribution. i often think about how patterns emerge in my life and i realize that these signal some sort of divine retribution. to some, these forms of retribution may not manifest themselves in the most obvious way but if we probe deeply enough into the punishment that we receive and reflect on why it occurred, how it is similar to the hurt we have inflicted on others, I believe that this helps us understand that we deserve what's happened to us. In the end, we can't blame others for the hurt they have inflicted upon us as it arose out of our own actions. Of course, it is difficult to always be so mindful of our own actions but it is good to cultivate mindfulness. In a way, our fate is not predetermined, it is determined by our own actions so if we are in control of our life most of the time, we can't blame others or god or whatever for the failures in our life.

i been indulging in my rented tvb serials. it feels good having not to worry anymore about my studies. i shall cast my worries abt my exam results for the time being n enjoy myself to the max :)

I am free. I am happy. My exams are over. The final exams in uni life. But it's time to work and start a journey to a different destination.

i wonder how much ear wax is needed to register a lower temperature reading during the fever checks b4 my exam.. hmmm...